I have had to learn how to enter peoples “personal space”, because of my job. We all seem to create a space around us, whether it is emotional or physical, a space that is a safe distance from others. If you ever want to check this out, enter a waiting room. Where do you choose to sit? Where do others choose to sit? How do you feel on a crowded bus, and there is only one unoccupied seat? How far do you stand in line, behind the person in front of you? How and when do you let someone invade that space…draw closer? Is it a matter of trust? Curiosity? Respect? Power? Energy?
When I began my career, I was not really conscious of the dynamic of this phenomenon. The more I observed others working in my profession, and the assistants that I was training; it was interesting to watch this process. Confidence in myself gave me the power to cross the space of comfort that others created around themselves. If I was going to be successful, I had to do this very quickly. I had to actually touch them to get them ready. It was even more important for the person, my client, to FEEL comfortable with me doing this. I soon began to realize that it was far more important for me to make my client FEEL beautiful than it was for me to make them to look beautiful. When they were done in my makeup chair, they had to go out and face an audience, or the camera. They had to feel confident within.
I became aware of a very real exchange of energy. I noticed that many makeup artists try to break the barrier with words, using incessant babble. In a situation where a client has to remain focused on their job, this is incredibly annoying. This may work in a beauty salon where folks go for the gossip, but where true artists are connecting with the creative forces…this just isn’t thoughtful.
People always ask me, why did Michael choose you to work with? I think the answer lies within AWARENESS. There is a common awareness of this energy. There is an exchange of energy between all things.
It was only after working with many other celebrities and creating relationships with others, I noticed that this energy does not always flow equally. Sometimes I came home completely drained from working with someone. I felt that some sucked the life out of me. Sometimes I felt equalized. I felt the exchange was a give and take.
Here is my EXPERIENCE with TRUTH. Did you ever feel just too tired or sick to go to work? Or maybe something dramatic happened in your life, which made it difficult to go to work. After 27 years, I had days like that, even with Michael.
BUT once I enter the room, where Michael was, I was immediately bathed in energy. He was constantly GIVING energy. He was not doing anything, but being there. He didn’t have to dance or sing. You could also see, everyone in the room was affected by this energy also. I never left a job working with Michael depleted. I left inspired. I know all of you have felt it too.
Michael taught me to choose a seat next to someone who has built a wall around them, and try to break through it with the energy of love.
The spirtitual connection between you and Michael was amazing.
Your observation can be a life-changing philosophy for us Sometimes you dont have to reach very far to reach out.Thank you.
I like that. I miss Michael. I especially like the end quote: “Michael taught me to choose a seat next to someone who has built a wall around them, and try to break through it with the energy of love.”
I think thats why we all loved Michael.. we saw and felt the connection he made with others.
The ease at which you interacted with Michael is such an enviable quality because so many fans just lost it when they met Michael. Michael really just wanted to be treated like a normal guy and not a celebrity, right? Was Michael closest with people who were able to see past his celebrity?
“I soon began to realize that was far more important for me to make my client FEEL beautiful than it was for me to make them to look beautiful.”
I like this. Right now I’m reading a book called “Go-Givers Sell More”, and it talks about the paradox that if you create value for others without the ulterior motive of receiving more value yourself, then good things happen for you. You give without emotional attachment to the return, all the while knowing on a subconscious level that there will be return. Whereas if you try to give to someone with a sense of falseness, the giving in order to get back, then it doesn’t work. Your motives have to be pure! Interesting read…
for some reason i know exactly what you speak of … and yes you are right some people are constantly giving energy and that above all is Michael…while some people are constantly feeding on the energy of others…i met many that, even if there were nice people, gave me a state of tiredness and irritation without having to do something … while some people i connect to like …we known each other since forever… the latter are mostly mj’s fans…and noticed that it’s because of Michael that we get to meet some of the most extraordinary people …people that make you feel like they are family or something even if they are total strangers. i guess personal space and the will to let it being ‘invaded” or not has a lot to do with that flow of energy. most sense it in a subconscious mode while some come to realise it’s importance because of the constant need for interaction. ever since i started using internet i realised that this is also true from a distance. for instance when chatting with people i am really close to, i feel things about them …sometimes their feelings or even vivid pictures of them in that moment, appearing in my mind … for instance, just for fun, i described my best friend’s outfit and room while talking on the phone…i don’t consider myself as having some special gift but i guess there’s something about it … and this energy flow also makes sense when considering the enormous love and attachment of people towards him…his love is felt …i feel it and felt it when i needed love most …during those awful moments of life…his love heals people’s hearts and those hearts give that love back to him. it;s a wonderful thing that happens…thank you for your love and wonderful words and now i’m sending love back to you karen. hope you’ll feel it ..
1. Your first paragraph makes my social anxiety shimmy just from reading that,haha. Which yes is weird considering my job. I am fine with MUA’s on my face and wardrobe literally pushing my boobs up but on a plane I am like ahhh this person is practically on my lap…I put sunglasses on and lean toward my window (yes it must be the window seat because then I only have to deal with having one stranger next me and don’t feel exposed,haha)
2. You’re only the 2nd MUA I have heard say babbling before going on is distracting, which it is. I love that as an artist yourself you get the process of others and their different types of creativity…my favorites are the ones who go nonstop while you have to go out to work right after but if someone comes and disturbs them they flip out for interrupting their artistic bubble.
3. Michael was the only person I ever knew where I could feel his smile, like it radiated from him. You usually don’t feel a smile per se, we see it and our brain receptors identify that as a sign of being caring, friendly, approachable,etc but to really feel it is a whole other thing….Michael kind of buzzed just being.
4. Thanks for sharing your life lessons and experiences.
5. That’s all…
Thank you Karen for a beautiful blog. That was a lovely look in to your relations with Michael. Thank you so much for sharing this. <3
I find it so incredibly interesting that you mentioned this. I have often thought about what it must have been like being in a room with Michael. His energy on stage was evident for everyone to see, but what was it like off stage? I always imagined him as having this calm about him, this aura of friendliness and stability, whenever he walked in a room. That he was always PRESENT.
Personal spaces are interesting, especially fascinating is how some are really good at sensing others’, while some have absolutely no idea and barge into it like elephants in a china shop.
I am among those that are very sensitive when it comes to this; I can read others’ personal spaces very easily, and I have my own very clearly set in my head and get very uncomfortable if someone I don’t know enters it. I guess it’s a trust issue. Also, it’s interesting how much we avoid going into the personal space of a stranger, not necesarily just because it’s awkward, but because it involves getting personally involved with them.
Loneliness is the plague of the Western world, yet we are taught to pretend it is not there. Sometimes, even solitude is frowned upon because not being amongst other people has such a huge stigma attached to it. And we’re all lonely, in one way or another, but reaching out to a stranger reminds us of that, and so we don’t. We tell ourselves that the lady on the bus or the girl in your biology class aren’t really that bad off. That they probably have family members or classmates to talk to, or at least…strangers. Just not us. Anything but us. So we go about our business, and pretend that we have no idea what the woman on the bus, or the girl in school are feeling. But in reality, we know exactly what they feel, because we feel it too.
P.S. I love the word play in the title. Clever.
PPS: Michael sat next to all of us on the bus…that’s why we love him so much.
Very well said and I enjoyed your PPS. It made me smile.
“PPS: Michael sat next to all of us on the bus…”
Succinctly and thoughtfully expressed. It brought a bittersweet tear of recognition to my eye when I read your comment. Unlike any other artist, Michael made fan feel like we were receiving his personal attention with every note, word and gesture. The only small change I would make in expressing the feeling for myself is that Michael sat next to each of us on the bus (rather than the collective “all”), because we each felt as if his spirit reached out to us individually.
Karen, Thank you for sharing such touching and intimate details about your feelings. I see this connection between you & Michael in the rare candid footage of the two of you together.
Love you more,
Melissa
I loved the way you express it, Melissa…you are right when you mention “Michael made fan feel like we were receiving his personal attention with every note, word and gesture”, he always gave each one of us energy, a magical energy and as Karen says we all have felt it.
When Karen says”Michael taught me to choose a seat next to someone who has built a wall around them, and try to break through it with the energy of love” I realize that his energy was all about love and that’s the most powerful kind of energy, so I think that’s why he touched each one of us so deep.
I read something once, an account from someone that had experienced death and returned, that there are those people, those souls, that “vibrate” at a higher plane. Their energy is so pure and so brilliant that it literally bathes those around them. Those are the people that when God calls them home, can stand in the presence of God himself because of their spiritual purity. I believe Michael operated out of that energy level. I saw the way that children looked at him, no fear, a sense of wonder. Adults were drawn to him. They knew there was something miraculous and special about him, about his person, but they couldn’t put their finger on it exactly. We hear over and over again from every one that met him, “He was the sweetest man I’ve ever met.” It didn’t matter if it was male or female, the feeling was the same.
Thanks for sharing again Karen. Our love goes with you always. Hugs and blessings.
You and Michael were both artists. Just look at your paintings! All MUAs aren’t necessarily artists, IMO. I mean, they know what to do – as you say – to make someone look look good. But beyond that, the sensitivity and emotional connection – that wavelength – is lost to them. It’s why they don’t know that babbling is distracting. Only an artist would understand that.
Michael’s energy – I’ve never been able to define it. Just listening to his music even now, it’s incredible. I’m not surprised it lifted you up – awakened your soul. He had the power to do that with people. He was a living, breathing jolt of energy – soul energy, love energy – it just ooozed from him. It’s like God took all the different types of energy contained in the Universe and put them into this one man so that he would be able to touch millions with it – near and far. And, he did.
I know you must miss that energy in your life more than most of us do after all those years you were around him. Thank you for sharing your experience and memory of it with us!
Seven
I love this energy that we’ve been creating meeting each other. And also feel Michael’s energy from above. Just thinking about his gorgeous smile and the L.O.V.E. THIS IS CONTAGIOUS
P.S. HELLO FAMILY!
Thank you so much for sharing this, I really enjoyed it. Michael is an extraordinary human being, it’s a wonderful force that surpasses life, time and distance. He still fills our lifes (and rooms) with his splendid energy, when I look at him, when I hear him, I can actually FEEL him, it’s something really peculiar. His aura of goodness and generosity is so strong! You just can’t ignore it and it’s very magnetic. I remember, after the earthquake of Haiti, that people was fist fighting for food, the humanitarian help decided to play Michael’s music when giving the food, and the mood of the people drastically changed, there was peace.
yeah
that’s so amazing ..didn’t know that.about haiti…noticed his music and concerts make michael the best nanny ever 
he calms my kid instantly 
and i am amazed how a child that is so little, (less than 2 yrs) feels him that way …at that age, we have a wisdom that most lose after growing up …some never lose that…
I’ve never had the honour of meeting Michael but as I learn more about him this sounds very true to me. I believe Michael never lost that wisdom you speak of. Something that came to mind is that when I had seen pictures of Michael with children he always bent down to greet that child at their level and with a smile. He would make a connection right away and certainly children instinctive recognize a kindred spirit. ♥
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yeah. i think that too …seeing the relationship ..if i can call it that way, that my son has with Michael, that instant bond ..is amazing for me. gives me a sense of how children are so much more wise than we are … i guess it’s all about purity …and for us, it;s about being open to it…can’t explain, however, jealosy and hatred towards him though…that must be also coming from a more powerful place … what i feel is that indeed Michael never lost that but instead it grew there, in that wonderful heart of his… and i think we might got it too …at least a part of it…we wouldn’t be here if we didn’t have it. and karen speaks so beautiful that her words carry love further …
Hi Karen – I hope you’re doing ok. I have read many times that people were in awe of being in Michaels presence. They just wanted to be close to him. He radiated an inexplicable energy that drew people to him. I believe your relationship with Michael was special because I have always felt you must be on the same spiritual plane as him. It must have been wonderful to work alongside somebody so totally focused. To watch the reactions of people to Michael whether it be at concerts, shopping malls,outside hotels, at airport terminals etc. is truly astonishing. Everybody is captivated by him. Ever humble he made each and everyone feel special. After reading American Master by C. Mecca i can relate exactly to what you are saying – Just a glance from him, a smile or simple acknowledgement was like a mega adrenalin boost. Anything pertaining to Michael be it a record on the radio or the mention of his name in a news article, inspires me to channel my energies in positive direction. Take care and let me say a big thankyou for sharing these wonderful memories with us. L.O.V.E.
BUT once I enter the room, where Michael was, I was immediately bathed in energy. He was constantly GIVING energy. He was not doing anything, but being there. He didn’t have to dance or sing. You could also see, everyone in the room was affected by this energy also. I never left a job working with Michael depleted. I left inspired. I know all of you have felt it too. KAREN @ that is becouse he gaven you L.O.V.E by just looking at you or the way he moved you know at we know he was all about L.O.V.E right that will inspire any one and that is way you want him to look at his best !! ……xxx
Thank you SO much for sharing this Karen
LOVE and GRATITUDE
I agree with Meghan, I have a strong wall around me, it´s not easy to get close and I hide a lot. And I don´t think talking is always the solution. I hate when people is ranting on about nothing, just to fill the air with noice. Or even worse, when people talk and then expect ME to take over! Ugh! I study people, try to get to know them before I talk to them. It feels safer to have a “first impression” that isn´t just based on a couple of seconds. I do feel “handicapped” because of this sometimes, like I miss some social skill or something. Idk.. I try to work on it and I did some progress. But I surrond myself with few people that I really trust and give 110% to them instead. Good or bad? I have no idea. At the same time I had several “service” jobs and had no problem to take care of people, the opposite really. I´m weird, just have to accept that. Haha! And now I´m ranting again… But yeah, thank you for sharing and spreading the love. LY <3
Its wonderful that you could experience such a positive and inspiring energy in your life. It is truly a blessing to be surrounded by people like Michael, because there are many others out there who are the excact opposite of him. They are like energy vampires. I think especially in his last years, Michael was surrounded by these energy vampires a lot. They sucked off his energy. I could feel his shining light was dimmed through them, although it was still there.
I’ll guess another reason why Michael chose you was because you also are a positive person, who gives energy. The energy exchange from Michael and you was equalized so to say. Although I never met you, I just feel it. For instance it always brightens up my day, when I read your blog, twitter, facebook etc.
Thank you for being who you are!
For me Michael is like sunshine, which warms my heart and touches my soul. When I have a bad day or feeling sad, I think about Michael or listen to his music and I immediatly cheer up. I am always very thankful, that Michael can cheer me up, no matter what. Its the priceless gift of joy he gives me in these moments and I’m very thankful for that.
I don’t know any other person, who has such a strong positive power.
And my question is, did you ever meet anyone else, with similar positive energy like Michael’s?
LYM ♥
Quite a thought provoking blog… and everyone’s replies have been intriguing. I’m still pondering on this one, it has my mind spinning in multidimensions with competing values and beliefs going against each other. LOL
However, this particular piece “Michael taught me to choose a seat next to someone who has built a wall around them, and try to break through it with the energy of love” made me think of how nice life would be if we all choose to give in to love, than live in fear. In a world where kindness is mistakenly equated with weakness, most of us have been conditioned to build walls around us to protect us from being hurt, ridiculed or taken advantage of. Rarely, are we ever encouraged to be bold enough to be guided by our inherent principles of compassion and understanding. Though, we are all in essence both human and kind
Thank you, Wingheart for the encouragement and for sharing your reflections with us.
Love,
Z
Reading your thoughts again makes Michael’s life story that much more compelling for me. We all know that there were times when Michael had every reason to be angry and/or fearful and he may have wanted to close the world off occasionally. We know that he did step back for short periods of time but he always came back and pursued a positive message and faced the ever present and ever negative media head on in word and in song! You go Michael!! (I’m reminded of the beautifully powerful defiance of “Scream,” and then the sweeping, epic, thunderous beauty of “Earth Song.” Just fabulous!!!)
On the softer side, and still not that long ago, I’m reminded of a brief phone interview he did shortly after his 50th birthday where he talked about eating ice cream and cake with his kids and declaring, with positive affirmation, that there was much more to come from Michael Jackson! This may sound silly but I really enjoyed the sound of his voice in that interview and listened to it several times. Very silky smooth, friendly, positive and looking forward to the future.
It’s still incomprehensible what happened to him last year. I still haven’t come to terms with it. I’m not sure I ever will. 
We know that because of who Michael was there HAD to be clearly defined boundaries for him. It’s also clear that he understandably didn’t want to be locked into those boundaries all the time (it must have been suffocating at times) but despite his difficult realities he primarily chose to “give into love” rather than “live in fear.” Sadly, we also know greedy people took advantage of this quality in him. Sickening.
What a remarkable man!! What life affirming lessons he has been able to teach through himself and through trusted friends such as Karen.
Blessings all!!
Hey Sandy, are you psychic?!
You picked up EXACTLY what was on my mind, while writing my post. MJ went through some rough, sad, and hurtful moments in his life. Yet he rose up every time they knocked him down and never gave into fear no matter how many times people let him down. That positive affirmation he had in my opinion came from within, he had this radiant inner joy that often burst through his laughter or his loving heart, which made everyone gravitate towards him. Some did so in order to emulate him and others did so in order to diminish or exploit his light. However, as history will continue to show us a pure light can never be tainted
Since I didn’t know him personally I may be inaccurate in assuming that off camera he appeared to have a bubbly personality. I presume that’s why he had such love for comedy films and his most favorite comedian, Chaplin believed “Life is a tragedy when seen in close-up, but a comedy in long-shot” which makes me wonder if Michael saw life in this perspective, as well.
Through his art he surly released a lot of his pain and I think it’s what (for most part) enabled him to cope and bounce back up in life. This is why I often get annoyed when I hear people saying how tragic he was or his life was, because in my opinion it was NOT. Yes, he was human and some aspects of his life were challenging and so forth, but the overriding story of Michael Jackson is that of a survivor, an ordinary man who despite extraordinary circumstances fought hard to not lose sight of what really mattered in life. He loved and wanted to be loved, in effect he worked hard to move the world, he used his God given talent to inspire others, and he entertained to provide people with an uplifting form of escapism. The hurdles he endured in his lifetime made him all more sensitive to the sufferings of others, which came to shape his perceived mission in life – to heal the world.
I wonder how many of those who cast their stones at him, would have lasted as long as he did or done all the great things he did, had they gone through what he did in life?
Karen True, Michael with the mere fact of being present radiates positive energy. Yes, indeed, I was never at his side, I could never embrace, however, the mere fact of him sitting somewhere in Neverland, in a photograph, it gives me enough to get up and continue.
That’s Mike, that’s what makes it so different than any of us … its essence, and its ability to give love without even saying a word …
This is a very thought provoking and meaningful lesson.
I will be thinking more about what kind of energy I am giving to others and whether I am giving it or taking it away. (Hopefully I’m giving more than taking. I don’t want to be an “energy vampire”!..:-) I lack Michael’s innate gift, in fact he has set a very high standard, higher than I can reach, but I can, that is we can decide what kind of energy we give to others from the teenager that bags our groceries to our employer/employees at work. Even something as simple as a smile always goes a long way. 
This brings a question to mind. This positive uplifting energy that Michael gave off, I wonder how much of it he had to work at and how much was just a natural part of his personality? To partially answer my own question, a lot does seem to be very natural to him. What an amazing gift he was given!!! How wonderful it must have been to meet him in person. I wish I’d had the opportunity.
“Michael taught me to choose a seat next to someone who has built a wall around them, and try to break through it with the energy of love.” Not an easy thing to do but so important. Great lesson!! Thank you Michael!!!
Thank you once again, Karen, for sharing your experiences and your positive energy with us!! I’m enjoying this journey with you and your guests and learning a great deal!!!
Forever blessings to all!
LYM,
Sandy
“I wish I’d had the opportunity.”
Woaou!!! Sandy, you were really inspired by this post ! There’s nothing more left to say, you choose the right words…
Karen, you were very lucky to share the same space with Michael and mix your positive energies together. I hadn’t got the chance to meet him but you just have to listen to his music, it’s POWERFUL, it puts you a smile on your face and you feel happy, connected ! What a beautiful gift he had and shared with you and with us !
As a shy and sensitive person, I’am used to build a wall around me not to get hurted by others. I don’t open up easily. I’ll try to work on it !!
Thank you Michael, thank you Karen.
Nicole,
LYM.
I read a book back in the 90′s called The Celestine Prophecy. It was so fascinating how it talked about give and take energy of human beings.
Karen, I hope that I am not being in appropriate in mentioning this as it could NEVER compare to your experiences with Michael. However, I can honestly tell you that I have experienced Michael’s energy since he left here. I have been one of many who have had very meaningful and purposeful dreams and spiritual direction from him. As a matter of fact, I did not know my life was so grey until Michael entered into my life a little over a year ago. I did know that I had been spiritually dry for a very long time.
My life has been forever changed. There is so much color to my life. So much hope (even though I have gone through a tremendously deep and long grieving period for someone I never even met) and the spiritual journey seems to be so clear and clearer with each passing day.
One dream I would like to share – Michael took me into this room. There were these babies each in a basket that were coming down and around a spiral conveyor belt. I did not understand why we were in this room or why Michael was showing me this. I looked at him as to ask may I go closer to look and Michael put his hand on my back and guided me over to the babies.
Each one was in a fetal position and sleeping. Michael had such love for these babies and he would softly stroke each of their cheeks as they came around. My thought was that this must be something that he was doing on the other side was taking care of these little babies and it was heartwarming. I woke up the next morning and felt this dream was so REAL. I felt I had really been with Michael and these babies. I wondered though what meaning this dream had.
Then I got a call from my son-in-law that my daughter was in the hospital and had been all night as she had a miscarriage. I did not even know my daughter was pregnant as they had not said anything yet. When I got off the phone I had this deep deep emotional pain that MY grandchild had passed. Then I instantly remembered this dream and was instantly comforted and at peace and never felt this pain again.
Michael is so amazing and I can’t speak of him in the past-tense because I would be denying to many VERY REAL experiences with him.
If it not too personal and you do not mind sharing – have you felt him around you since last year and if so, is it the same familiar feeling you had with him before as far as his energy?
Karen, you have helped me so much as I was in tremendous turmoil over what Michael went through with the lies and trial. I always thought he was alone during this time as it seemed everyone ran and no one was there for him. To know he had you – such a loyal, kind, and GENUINE friend – has helped me more than you could ever know. It is still very disgusting, maddening, and sad – but, at least now – I can have a level of comfort knowing you were there for him.
xxxooo
Sunflower1111
its neat that you bring this up. I for one am always the type to sit on the bench with nobody else on it and the desk farthest from the rest. I noticed that I tend to prefer ‘the invite’ or a wall that has already been broken down. I never once dared to break down a wall myself. is it insecurity? i really dont knw. and the funny thing is i dont come off that way at all. so in fact what pple think of me is the complete opposite of who i am, always afraid of invading people’s spaces and breaking barriers between myself n others. Karen if i had your job Id be most nervous as it means getting up close n personal with others. Im not even comfy puttin makeup on my mother because i never been that physically close to her or anyone but my husband. WHAT IS THAT?? weird… am i phobic? or just weary of mine and others spaces..
This is so true!!! And it’s true everywhere, whenever you go and whatever you do. It’s the cosmic energy. It’s empathy. People can give us positive or negative energies. Michael was surely a person who could influence people just with his presence, his look, his moves. Or just with an attitude or a posture. That’s very rare….that’s why it is difficult to find so precious a person. I remember the energy I felt when I met him. The aura….that aura.
There are people who clearly have that aura, positive aura.
That’s why when I think of him in his latest hours makes me sick. Because energy was no longer with him….but it’s gone everywhere. I really believe it, because we can feel him.
I learned to give positive vibes to people, even in my worst periods….animals and children feel them immediately. Adult people are a little harder….but it’s something that can be done! I broke barriers with a smile. Smiling is my way of opening my space to people and accept theirs.
What a privilege that you were able to meet him and experience that energy!!
That positive energy and vibe can be felt in your post!! Thank you for sharing it!! 
just needed to tell you this: i love your comments sandik01. <3
karen more certain than words, I often feel that feeling, you were lucky to find Michael, who gave so much energy.
I love you Michael
Karen,
I recognise what you are saying here very much.
There are those that give energy,those that equalise/mirror and those that take your energy.
It’s a balancing act in life.
Interesting… I think about this quite often.
About “my space” … I think it’s all related to people’s ways and attitudes. Speaking about trains, lines at banks or supermarkets, and so on… people that don’t respect your personal space, your “bubble” , ussually means they don’t respect much about society in general. I see that a lot and sorry to say : I let them know they are making me uncomfortable by standing to the side or the line, to widen the distance.
As for energy, yes, there are givers, takers and equalisers. And it is related to generousity. I have this idea, an awful idea to be honest, that friendship is rather selfish. Most people become your friends because of the way they feel around you, nor because of the way you feel around them. If this ways continue they become the takers in your life. Oftenly, friendship grows the right way, and you and your friend get the right balance. Being Michael so famous maybe he is not the best example to prove my point, but… people wanted to be around him for selfish reasons and even giving him a gift or spending quality time with him, was more about them than about Michael. It’s good to know he had it the right way with a few friends at least.
Michael was all about giving, that’s right. He needed to be loved so much ! Maybe that’s the reason why he was so lonely, maybe so much giving leaves no room for taking what you need.
Thanks for sharing Karen. <3
@ Wendy,nods
It is very interested what you write Karen, I have noticed that by myself…..Some people seem to take all the energy away from us, they are so negative that you are getting tired and depressed.
Even if this people don’t talk to us or don’t act, with entering the room you can feel their negative energy. Michael was someone who gave energy, who made you feel good and relaxed- he gave positve energy ( even if he had to face so many negative things). Some people can’t feel this energies, because they are not aware, they are not open for other people, they don’t have so many emotions…..but you were aware of this, you are lead by your heart -and Michael knew this. This is one reason why he loved you so much, I guess…..
Karen, thank you for this blog. Michael was such a giving person and must have been a joy to work with all those years. He was truly one of a kind! LYM
Thank you Karen. I wish I had the opportunity to have personally known Michael. The memories and experiences you share means a lot. I think of Michael everyday. He will always have a special place in my heart, as my love for him is unconditional. Wishing you peace, love & happiness, and all the best. xoxo ~k
this was very nice to read! i can feel your energy too ,
thanks for being so loyal to Michael and caring for his fans!
Karen you are so good with the words!
You have a very special way to convey your thoughts and I enjoy reading all your posts.
I completely relate to what you said about Michael’s energy and ability to inspire, that’s what makes him different and better than all other artists (that and much more).
I really appreciate all you do for the fans, you truly are a great person.
Thank you for keeping Michael alive!
L.O.V.E
Shiran
Karen:
Michael taught me to choose a seat next to someone who has built a wall around them, and try to break through it with the energy of love. – I LOVE IT!!!
I feel you energy. THANK YOU FOR YOUR SPACE!
Michael was caught between this world and he was very present in the spiritual
world at the same time.
You were very fortunate to be chosen by him to work with.
Michael’s energy is fun, like dancing and singing and celebrating; his energy is god given. He is simply being there makes me happy. And I can feel his energy through your words, Karen. It’s speechless.
Dear Karen,
Thank you for gently opening your heart and sharing these precious insights and delightful memories of Michael.
I believe that if we could have actually seen the “invisible” aura that surrounded Michael, we would behold a pure, soft white light. God so blessed him because he knew he would not be selfish; that he would give freely and lovingly to the whole world. I hope with all my heart that you have that “knowingness” within that he is only gone from us on a physical level. He is touching and motivating people at the very depth of our souls. I did not know him when he was here on earth, but I know him now.
You are most gracious and kind. Again, thank you for sharing.
–Susant T
Thank You so much Karen…
I’m speechless, this last post of you made me cry <3
It's so easy to see Michael when you talk/write about him…
God Bless You, Love You More **
ps: I ever met Michael but i can feel his energy around me
all the time, when i feel powerless just need to look at him
and everythings goes right again.
He's my inspiration, love, joy,positivity…All good feelings
are inside his eyes <3
karen beautiful words really touched me just thank you and god bless you much
Melvy
Thank you Karen, your words are full of truth and wisdom. Everything is a question of energy, this is the good or bad energy we have in us and that we project onto the world that determine the nature of our relationships with others…the good or bad vibes. I am very sensitive to energy that emanates from people, I can be open or closed to people quickly depending on what I perceive, what I feel. But I try to correct myself and I noticed that often when I stay calm, gentle and smiling face to someone who is aggressive, irritated and unpleasant, little by little that person calms down and so I’m able to get what I wanted. Positive energy attracts positive energy and love is positive energy. Michael was good at that and thank you for sharing with us what he taught you… as you said it’s obvious that each of us would have been deeply affected and inspired by the extraordinary, comforting and beneficial energy that emanated from Michael. And for those, like me, who have not had the chance to approach him this will be an eternal regret to have not had the opportunity to feel his aura and to be bathed in his incredible energy of love.
Blessings and love.
Françoise
Karen, I have a question for you. Given your years with Michael and the lessons learnt, what do you miss most about him?
Everything…
Awww. Hugs to you Karen. ♥
You brought tears to my eyes.. Thank you for the response.
Thanks for sharing this. Allowing others to feel comfortable in their personal space is very important. I even consider my cellphone a part of my personal space. Once, someone left a disturbing message on my cellphone and it became the focus of a court trial, lol. I’m glad that’s over!
I remember a time in my life at the at the young age of 23 losing 2 brothers at once in an automobile accident.
I searched the Universe for answers, of peace of mind, for the why. My journey took me to Hinduism, Buddhism, to New Age sprituality.. In my quest for answers it all took me back to GOD.
To this day I miss them so, but I know they are paving the way for me.
How do you adore someone you don’t even know, whom you have never met?
I really thing there is something to that energy of love….
It is like meditation, get 4 meditators in one room and you get Nirvana!
Hi, everyone !
I went to Karen Faye’s twitter this morning and I saw her painting. It’s wonderful ! Amazing !! Everyone should go and see it…
Karen, I must say that fortunately I was sitting when I saw it and to know that it was not finished ??? Woaww… It is really realistic, you can feel that you could touch her if you wanted to. I didn’t put the link here because I think it was up to you to do it if you liked it and I didn’t want to mix the blog and twitter. (and I haven’t got yet a twitter account)
I would love to see more of your paintings of course if you want to share them with us ! You are really gifted, maybe you’ve got some other talents ???
LYM
Nicole.
I’ve discovered much about Michael Jackson since his passing that has enriched and sustained my life, and enabled me to express myself in ways I never could prior to becoming enlightened about his goodness, humility, generosity and loving nature. Karen, you were so fortunate to have had this close bond with a person the rest of us can relate to only by seeking the truth and appreciating the totality of the man. Thank you for sharing with us all.
Karen, I’m starting a new job tomorrow where I won’t know anyone around me. I’m anxious, and like you shared, uncomfortable with others that I don’t know. I’m glad you shared this, it’s helped me realized what my part in this is, and I’m going to approach it in a different way this time. Thank u.
It’s great to read in so many posts,and we all feel somewhat the same.Most of us never met Michael,yet we feel so connected to him..I wish I had invested more time in finding things out about him before he died,not after..wished I had defended him more before, not after..
I had very mixed feelings about his recordings coming out.
- did he want things the recorded but just unreleased ones, to be on a record..for his family? or was he going to do things with a different label..Do I buy it becasuse I want the world to see that we still Love Michael,and love all his work,,or not buy it to snub Sony? I am conflicted.
I am conflicted with TII also,,he was so thin..but you could see how he worked..and I thought in control…not sure. I just watched the History concert in Copenhagen( I Think Aug 96) he was thin then too..and when he finished smooth criminal,.could hardly get the last lines out..like he was really out of breath..maybe lung problems)..
I am not sure about any of if..I just know the world lost a great human spirit..The children lost a father that loved them more..and Karen lost her friend…
Dear Karen,
thank you for sharing your insights and telling stories from your work with Michael. Your words bring Michaels loving and giving energy back to life, today that made my day, as it was one of the depleting ones. Probably because I let the energy of doubt win over the energy of love. So, thank you for reminding me. Your memories of Michael as well as your own discoveries are precious and inspiring – and so are the comments posted here. Thank you for creating this peaceful and meaningful space. And by the way: next to your great painting talent (on canvass or as a make-up artist) I think you are a very gifted writer also.
Lots of love to you!
I have never in my life seen so many human beings mourn for one person as I have with Michael’s passing.
I often wonder how many friends he really had in his personal life.
Who really cared about him, who was willing to say no to him, who took time to hug him if he needed it, who told him Michael you gotta stop?
I do know that his children loved him, and what a huge hole in their hearts.
I have maybe a dumb question….But I wonder why we let the media perpetuate the myth so much about Michael not being a sexual man?? Michael was not a pedophile..not asexual at all..but a regular man..Why did he..they..(management)..let that myth go on..He was probably with lots of women..why not let them say so..I know its personal and not anyones’ business really..but when he was getting accused of stuff…and always mentioned with his name..why wasnt that adressed?
I know When Oprah asked Lisa if their marriage was consumated..she just said yes..She should have said yes it was and he was an awesome lover..and he’s not gay..!! but she didnt want to get into that..and I get that..but ..not sure why the myth wasnt shattered..by someone..
That was on my mind!!!
Karen, thank you for sharing this wonderful energy of Michael, even without knowing you or Michael personally, I understand what you meant: it’s like you go through a storm and into the room where Michael was, the heavens opened and the room would be filled with flowers, am I right? It is a contagious energy, without even being near him, I also felt that, and still do. Thanks again Karen, for you there! I love your personality, love your spirit, love your love for Michael. God bless you! I love you, sweet angel!
Karen i understand perfectly what you talk about….sometime it’s not easy to explain all this matters.
People use to trust in what they can touch only. The gift of the peace and love
he gave to you is wonderfull and thanks to share your emotions with us.
The first paragraph is so thought provoking. It took me awhile to allow closeness. I had my guard up for quite some time and never would I allow anyone into my private space, not because I didn’t want to, but because I feared what was expected of me and if it would be good enough.
The energy is so positive when you write about him and how he made you feel. I can understand to some degree. Briefly when I met Michael, I was pretty sick and undergoing then chemo. I was afraid of Michael. Feared I was not good enough. Michael, being Michael, didn’t care how I looked, or how old I was, all he did was smile. When he hugged me, I felt all the negative feelings inside of me leave, and a feeling of serenity took it’s place. He told me then, I should be home and not there. How beautiful he was, how regal and how sweet of him to think of me, when he should have been thinking he was late with his taping with Dick Clark. Others always came first over his own well being. I shall never forget.
Karen, thank you for sharing your memories with everyone. I saw you in the programm “Michael Jackson, after life” and heard what you said. My blood went cold in my veins when I heard you say that he felt the world had turned against him, in spite of the fact that he had given it all to us. Because I never believed he had done any wrong, and I never changed my mind about him. I was 11 when I first heard him sing and I first saw him dance. I have been struck by beauty and grace. I totally understand and love his art and his message. In fact, it has brought my own space to life! Although I have been, I am and I always will be an unconditionnal fan, I would never have tried to see him other than at a show. I would never have tried to speak to him had I met him on the street, let alone chase him for an autograph, a word or whatever else fans wanted from him. I took everything he has given me as the most precious gift, I treasure every moment of the incredible journey I have happily embarked on with him, but I only took what he was willing to give, and no more. I wish people had been more decent with him. It has always made me sick to see how badly people used to behave toward him! They had no dignity, and at the same time they took away his own dignity.
I do hope he knew lots of people never ceased to love and respect him as an artist AND as a human being. I personally walked on his side in June 25. I did not watch him walk the red carpet every day on TV. It made me sick! I would NOT be a part of that fellony, but I sure was with him. I hope he felt that, in a way. And that there were thousands of us.
I have taken on his message. When I lack patience or energy with my kids, I think of him, and then I know what being a good mother is my talent, and that it’s the most important thing in the world. I then feel at peace, and I thank him for that.
I will never forget him as long as I live. I hope you are at peace too now.