Life is a gift. The path to a joyous life, is to share. The first thing one must do is to recognize the gift you were born with, and trust in that. Our first instinct is usually not to have confidence in that gift…so we may be afraid to go with it, afraid we may fail. But if you can take a leap of faith, you will find your bliss in sharing that gift with others.
As a child, I would get lost in a blank piece of paper and a crayon. I was tall and geeky in kindergarten and elementary school. I was completely ignored until I was in art class. The teacher who frowned at me during arithmetic class, gloated over my art work. At the end of High School, I ended up winning a complete scholarship to art school, but I did not follow my gift.
I tried modeling, because I was tall and became gangly when I became a teenager. That was fun of course. It gave me the attention and confidence that I desperately needed, emerging from a chubby pubescent. The initial novelty wore off. The ruthless reality and shallowness of competition over physical attributes became apparent. I lost the joy in strutting my stuff in front of photographers and down runways. It wasn’t until I began repairing my own makeup and hair, after the experts were done with me, that the other models took notice of my additional talent. They wanted me to fix them up too, so they would drag me into the bathroom and I fixed them too. I found my joy. I had so much more fun behind closed doors doing everyones make-up and hair, than I did in front of the camera. My lightbulb moment didn’t hit me until I was in my twenties.
When I found my gift, my entire life suddenly began to fall into place. I enrolled in cosmetology school for evening classes, and the demand for my talent began to grow during the day. On a modeling interview, I met the top celebrity photographer Dick Zimmerman. When he hired me as a model, I had the chance to tell him that I was really a make-up artist. We got along so well, he decided to try me out. Bingo! I was in the right place, at the right time, with all the skills to get the job of my dreams. Dick called me for all his jobs, with the top celebrities. Then, not unlike any of his other calls for me to come in for work, he booked me to shoot an album cover with Michael Jackson. The next 27 years of my life were forever to become magic.
But I am not here to talk about the last 30 years. I am here to talk about today and tomorrow. Michael showed me the world, and he taught me so much, I cannot let his death be the end of Michael’s ability to give. Michael filled my pockets with so many gifts. I cannot sing and dance, but he believed in me and the talents that I brought to his career. I must now share them. After being completely traumatized by my loss….the worlds loss, it took me a year to be clear about one of the biggest lessons he taught me. Share your gifts.
So I am here, with all of you, to continue the journey that Michael began for me. I do not know exactly where the path is leading, but I am confident that magic happens when you know what your gift is….and I know my gift was Michael.
Welcome to my journey.
Karen
Looking forward to your blog! Keep smiling!
Hello !!!
Happy Mother’s Day, Sweetie. <3
Hello
Hello, Karen. Thanks so much for sharing your love of Michael with us. You were very lucky to have been able to spend time in his presence. His spirit will live on in my heart forever. While I felt devastated by the event, I know you were touched even harder by it. My prayers are with you.
Hello Karen, I am very glad you have a blog. Let me tell you that you are a wonderful person and I love you and respect you very much.
hi Karen!
Keep smiling!
Hello Karen!
Thank you for inviting us to your blog and continuing to share your gifts. Wishing you all the best.
xo,
Ruba
Turkle! Hi! Its about time. Love you x
Thanks….I just had to get past June 25, 2010, to clear my mind. It was so difficult to go back to June 25, 2009 to be able to do the interview.
I think I can move forward.
LYM
K
“I think I can move forward” …
we are all here for you in case you find out you can’t yet <3
I second that!!!
I second that!!
Awesome! Thank you Karen! Looking foward to gain loads from you MWAH!
Karen, thank you so much for sharing your journey will all of us. I appreciate you!
I am so happy to see you again! I was waiting you more than ever! It’s a fine day today!
Hello Karen,
I am very glad you have a blog. Let me tell you that you are a wonderful person and I love you and respect you very much.
Thank you for inviting us to your blog.
heyyy baby!!!
♥♥
Hi Karen
Sending you a great big HUG, Wishing you all the best with your new Blog..
Karen! I am happy to see you here and so excited for your blog! I’ve missed you very much and look foward to gaining knew insights and ideas from you. Thank you for sharing your creative genius with us! Love, hugs Kisses! xoxo
Thanks for joining the parade down the path that Michael opened up for us. We have some hurdles to confront concerning the upcoming trials, but if all hold hands and look up….we will make it.
LYM
K
Yes, we do. But together there is nothing that we cannot conquer. Any obstacle, any hurdle, any path. Hand in hand, heart to heart with a special light guiding our way. Looks like we’ll definitely make it.
LYM, most and always. xoxo
Who knows where the journey will lead us. I’m just glad we can embark on it together again. There is a army of love out in the world these days. Many of the friends I’ve made in the past year, i know i will have for life & i know i have them because you brought us all together. Thank you Karen, and no no no I LYM xxx
Hi Karen! I’m so glad to see your blog come alive! You’ve written a very insightful and thought-provoking entry. Thank you for your candor about your early days. How lucky you are to have recognized early on what you love to do. I am 32 and still a struggling to find a profession that makes me excited to wake up everyday and doesn’t feel like work. I take from your post today that maybe I need to look a little deeper inside myself and find my gifts so that I can share them with the world and find my piece of happiness. Karen, since getting to know you on the net I’ve felt that you are a very centered, loving and wise woman and your blog post shows my instincts were right. It’s no wonder Michael loved you so much. Thank you for sharing your heart with us. ~ L.O.V.E. to you from Nicole
LYM Nicole….your gift is there, trust me. Sometimes fear can keep it hidden. Maybe if you confront your biggest fear, your gift will be revealed. Don’t be discouraged, it can be revealed at any age. Have fun and share your love along your path to finding out.
K
These are such valuable and encouraging words. I know about the “fear” thing and it can be a burden. Like you said, don’t be discouraged!!…:-)
Thank you for starting this blog and mentioning that you might include some of your paintings. That’s great news!! I’ll be looking forward to that and reading your latest words.
As someone else had mentioned, I also saw the 20/20 special that you were on recently and greatly appreciated your comments. Can’t believe it’s been a year. Feels like an episode of the Twilight Zone in some ways. Except with that T.V. show you could change the channel if needed, this “episode” is sadly real…:-(
Blessings to you on this new journey.
I’m so glad i see your words…….I’M SO HAPPY! Missed ya!
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and life with us. When (humbly) speaking of your gifts, I think you may have omitted communication and writing
. I look forward to reading your new blog.
Karen, I’m so happy to see you again! We really missed you! I hope, you’re ok… I’m sure, in a few hours all FOK-peeps are here…
)
x
I am so excited to enter your world of art! I am a an aspiring film makeup artist and am struggling bad to find the money for a professional school so I watch YouTube channels in the mean(sp) time to further my education for free ;^p
I can’t wait for your blog!
You do not need to go to a professional make-up school. Just start with the basics, and build your knowledge step by step with practice. Then find a mentor. Someone you can assist (for free, in exchange for experience and observation). I am still learning
That is what is exciting about the profession. The learning never ends.
K
I am very happy you have a blog now Karen….to be able to get in touch again <3.
Thank you so much for all the time you spent with us last year…because of you and your love you helped us all to keep going… .
Thank you for all your trust, love and motivation!
Feel embraced,
Lea x
Hey Karen! I am so happy to see you again! It´s gonna be a wonderful journey to follow you, i am sure! Thanks for sharing your story on how you got to be a makeup artist, it´s not very different from mine
Take care sweet Karen! See you! Kisses /maria
Wow Karen
This is so great blog!! thank you for sharing!!
I miss you and love you more!!!
Happy to be in your blog Karen. A new adventure for me, enter to a world of art…….
But I know you are the best teacher.
Blessings <3
Dear Karen – thank you for sharing – I am looking forward to this journey – love Sunny
Michael meant so much to so many of us.. I still don’t know how I am ever really going to understand that he has left his earthly body for a more ethereal place in our universe.
You were fortunate to have known Michael, I hope that you and his other friends continue his legacy for at least our lifetimes.
Thank you for allowing me this time.
HI Karen, thank yo for doing this! <3 (I think it doesn´t work here… LOL)
I think it does…I just have to approve of you first.
LYM
K
I can approve the heart here? How can I do this… I need my <3…lol
Karen, thank you for all!
Love you more!!
I’m so glad you’ve started a blog. Looking forward to reading it. I love the way you said you had a “lightbulb moment” lol! I know what you mean about having to wait for a year before being able to move forward. Thank you for sharing your gift and experiences, and helping us to move forward too. You are a true inspiration! xx
Hello,our sweet Karen……we surely missed you…..nice to see you again….Love you most…..!!!!!!! <3
Hi Karen, I’m happy to read your words again! Your blog is wonderful! I loved to read your introduction and how you found your gift and path in life. Very inspiring for me. Thank you for creating this blog <3 Much LOVE to you from Elle
We Had Him by Maya Angelou
Beloveds, now we know that we know nothing, now that our bright and shining star can slip away from our fingertips like a puff of summer wind.
Without notice, our dear love can escape our doting embrace. Sing our songs among the stars and walk our dances across the face of the moon.
In the instant that Michael is gone, we know nothing. No clocks can tell time. No oceans can rush our tides with the abrupt absence of our treasure.
Though we are many, each of us is achingly alone, piercingly alone.
Only when we confess our confusion can we remember that he was a gift to us and we did have him.
He came to us from the creator, trailing creativity in abundance.
Despite the anguish, his life was sheathed in mother love, family love, and survived and did more than that.
He thrived with passion and compassion, humor and style. We had him whether we know who he was or did not know, he was ours and we were his.
We had him, beautiful, delighting our eyes.
His hat, aslant over his brow, and took a pose on his toes for all of us.
And we laughed and stomped our feet for him.
We were enchanted with his passion because he held nothing. He gave us all he had been given.
Today in Tokyo, beneath the Eiffel Tower, in Ghana’s Black Star Square.
In Johannesburg and Pittsburgh, in Birmingham, Alabama, and Birmingham, England
We are missing Michael.
But we do know we had him, and we are the world.
Beautiful words!…:-)
Hello Karen!!! I am so glad to read you again! Congratulations for your new blog site =D Send you a big big HUG!
Dear Karen, thank you for sharing so much. I was always glad that Michael was in the world and now I’m glad that you are in the world. I wish you the best what the world can give. Send a big hug to you.
Dear Karen,
First of all thank you for the 20/20 interview. I cried my heart out. I think it’s wonderful that your’s and Michael’s paths met and you have enriched each others lives by being the kind of individuals that you are. I will never be able to come to terms with HOW we lost Michael.
Karen you mentioned that you love drawing and painting. Will you ever publish your work(s) on this blog?
With love and best wishes… always,
Maya
Thank you Maya. I do indeed plan on creating a page of my paintings. I have never “blogged” before. It will take me a little while to get up to speed.
LYM
K
Dear Karen, thank you for inviting us to your nice blog. Wishing you all the best.
L.O.V.E
Karen I am glad to be back with you, I was on facebook but you closed the account to go to twenty, I could not follow it in twenty, because I did not know how it worked, now I’m glad to contact you again, thanks for following there, please be patient is not well English.
Hi Karen,
I am so happy to see you! I was also on your FB before it closed ….
Thank you for everything you do. Many loves
Awwww Turkle <3 Love ya, but you know that… Yesssss, now I can ask you a loooot about getting volume in my effin hair! And about mousse not "mouse" LOL!
Like others said, keep smiling, we love you
And working on getting my picture up… I´m slow…
Yay!
Speaking of sharing gifts……
hahah sorry…couldn’t help it, it was just so wide open.
<3
LOL…how about Monday?
Sure..Monday is good for me.
Hi Karen, great blog.
Intersectionality is a great way to think of the myriad of life’s connections.
Did you see my piece about Michael’s moonwalk – a choreography of contradiction – and the messages embedded in his videos that I sent to your Twitter? It’s published in an academic blog at USC’s Annenberg School of Communications. http://blog.learcenter.org/2010/06/remembering_michael_jackson_mo.html#more
My best friend – Dick Zimmerman’s daughter-in-law – sent it to Dick as well.
Looking forward to reading your insights.
Hi
I just wanted to say how much I enjoyed you article. I feel that the essence of Michael is too often watered down into something fluffy and safe. I see Mj as a warrior which I believe your article supports. His treatment by the media suggests such an illusion of moving forward but walking backwards.
Totally fascinating and gave me a different perspective of his art and his struggle to define himself.
Thank you
Julie
Julie,
Hi! Thank you so much for your comments. I am so glad that you found it interesting.
Yes, he was a warrior, and I think that we can learn something not just from the messages themselves, but the way in which he delivered them amid his battles (as noted, sometimes in a contradictory fashion). Some see the racial embrace in “Black or White”, some see the hailing of community-based defense in the form of Black Panthers, some see both. His work – and his life – are so rich.
And we are so lucky to be able to read the insights of someone who was such a formative part of Michael’s work!
Thanks again, Julie!
great!!!!!!
Sylvia, I enjoyed reading your thought provoking article. Over the years, some have tried to paint Michael as superficial, but clearly he was not.
Thank you Karen !
A lot of things of what you wrote here, touch me… so much.
I don’t know why, but the vision of share and give “what you are good for”, is appeared to me, last night. I was thinking about how Michael applied his philosophy to his work. The secret is to give
The way I went through, to find my job look like yours.
I understand so much, the first reaction of Human to ‘not follow the gift’. It’s exactly what happened to me.
Start in photography … Evening classes … to finally become an interior designer.
…
I just needed to share this with you.
next step for me … I have to practise my english cause it was not easy to explain this
L.
Karen, I am elated to see you started your blog. I already favorited it on my computer. May it be the start of an exciting journey of healing and connecting. I would like to thank you for your interview. Your words made us shed tears that we have been holding back. “We cried at the same time” that night. In a world where Michael had so few to trust, we are thankful he had you. We love & support you. You have the heart of a lion, Karen, noone can take that away from you. L.O.V.E
Just want to say HELLO Karen and hello dear friends … nice to meet you here!
Yeah, Turkle’s back!!! Glad you got your blog up Karen. Thank you for everything that you’ve already shared with us this past year. I see why Michael loved you so much.
Thank you for sharing your memory with us and thank you for continue the path of Michael Jackson. I am sure lots of us will follow also the same path…spread love…
Hi Karen, I am so glad that you opened this blog. I love you so much, you are a so nice person.
I have never interacted with Karen in any manner, however I look forward to developing new friends.
welcome
You will find many friends here.
Hi Karen
Thank you for welcome us on your path
Thank you for sharing with us
Thank you for the 20/20 interview, it was so poignant…
We’ll take care of this gift in sharing friendship here !
L.O.V.E. Karen
Hi Turkle! Great to see your new blog! Looking forward to reading more about YOU, Michael, and how to keep from looking like the grumpy old lady I am. LOL!
Seven
ie: I need to know how to look like a PYT when your’e a GOL (grumpy ol lady)
Hi Karen, it’s me Teresita Lozada your Facebook/Twitter friend from Puerto Rico. I am so glad you have a blog so we can have in some way a direct contact as well.
Just dropping and say hello to you and all my KARENLAND family I see here. L.O.V.E YOU!!!
so GREAT you came back to join me…
LYM
Aw Tere — you remembered my “karenland”… that warms my <3
Hi Karen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Good to see you back
(this is Fran from Paris)
Love u always <3
Hi Fran!!!!
Thank you Karen, Im so glad to read you again, we miss you!!
How come I don’t see my pic? LOL
I think you have to download it here. I am new @ this too.
K
LOL…good to know that I am not the only one who has some probems with those kind of things but we are learning by doing, right
…@tere1968:you have to upload it here (in:edit profile) and then SAVE your changes (I had the same problem yesterday: the pic is there but not shown here).
LYM
Hey, Karen! Thank you so much for sharing your wonderful talent! You are such a lovely person, and I’m so happy that YOU got to meet Michael in life. I’m very excited to hear what you want to say and teach each and everyone of us.
Karen, love you!
we are in it all together. everyone has something to teach and everyone has something to learn…..
True.
Never blogged myself – not sure I’ve got that much to blog about!
Hope you have fun doing this Karen and I know you’ll have had it said before, but thankyou for being a part of Michaels life and sharing his dreams. You did him proud for sure xx
Hi Karen.
I´m so happy that you opened this blog. Nice to hear from you again.
I love you.
Awwwwwwwww!!! hahahaha!!! Karen!!!! Hiiiiiiiii!!!! I’m so happy!!!!
ur back!!! 
THANK UUUUUUU!!!!
tons of hugs
Love UUUUU
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
WhooHoo!!!!! You’re back!
LYM
K
Hola Mapi. Soy yo, Teresita lol
Hi dear…happy to be by your side in this journey! <3
So glad to see you here
LYM
K
ugh…I don’t have a face…LOL…forgot to upload pic…
ok…now I have one…LOL
Hi Karen
Thank you for opening up to us
We all have been blessed with various gifts and sometimes it takes a lifetime to realize what those gifts are .
May I just say you have also been blessed with the gift of healing because that what you are also doing on your journey.Helping heal the pain of Michaels loss by sharing your stories with us.
Love and Gratitude Always
Helena
I think we have all helped each other….you all helped me, more than you will ever know. I was surrounded by so many lies…and I knew all of you were seeking the truth too.
Hi Karen, good day, I’m from Manila, Philippines… the day I found you, you and your tweets, I decided to follow you because your words are very inspiring to me and keep me believing… I loved reading your words, that’s why I’m here, hoping that you become an author of a book so that you continue to inspire others… even I haven’t met you… I had a feeling your words is all base on what you experienced… telling the truth, just keep in touch…love u!
Dear Karen, I’m so glad you started this ! I missed you more than I can explain ! <3 I am confident your blog will not only be good advise for some, but also true inspiration for many. A year after, it gets as tough as day 1 for us most of the time. "Hello Friends" has already inspired us to keep on searching for what is missing: magic. If not to reach us, at least to believe in it.
TY and LY ! <3
(LOL at Meghan. I’m excited for that particular gift sharing to occur as well, haha!)
Karen, I’m so glad you’re doing this. Love you!
Hi Karen!
I’ve read EVERYTHING!! This is wonderful. Thank you. The 3< heart thing doesn't work here….but <3 anyway. lol. <3 <3 WTG
P
Pat’s arrived
Nice to see all my old and new friends. Thank you, Karen, for giving us this opportunity. L-O-V-E
feels good!
Karen its so great to be here with you!! This is awesome, thank you for starting this blog, its like we are all together again as a family!! We’ve missed you, but I knew in my heart that you were doing the right thing, taking the time for yourself – I’m so grateful that you are back! Yay!! I’m so happy now!! Thank you for sharing your thoughts, inspirations and stories with us, you are amazing! Love you more!!
Rachael x
Dear Karen, thank you so much for your blog. Together again, huh?
I’m sending lots of love to you and a big hug.
Dear,
I am going to request you to tell me how to increase the volume of my hair
loosing clumps of them everyday 
I always lazed around to make a wordpress account lol Well, you made me make one and now I can try my hands on blogging
Thank you!!
Love you more !!!~~~~~
Neyha ~~
Hi Karen,
I’m so glad to meet you here, although is my first time as a ‘blogger’. I missed you so much…
love
luisella
me too
Hi Karen,
I’m so glad to meet you here, although is my first time as a ‘blogger’. I missed you so much…
love,
luisella
This new blog looks great my BS… I already love it… will check it often…
have a beautiful day you da bomb…
ILY,
LS
Hi Laureen,
nice to see you here (too)!
xoxo
Bita
Can anybody tell me how to get my photo to show. I can see it from my settings, but for some reason it’s not showing on my posts? Thanks!!
Morning from a grey Scotland!
Joy xx
Hi Joy,
I was able to upload my image but clicking on my edit profile and then to the right there is a box that says change your Gravatar. Click there and it will let you upload from your computer.
Karen
yes…I did,but still can’t see my photo:(
Great!! We can hear (read) from you again, Karen. Missed you. I feel your heart breaking during the 20/20 interview. ((hugs))*
Oh, just to give you an update.. I am seeing good result in taking resveratrol.. haha.. thank you for that tip. – laddy86
ps.. thank you for opening up a blog.
Dear Karen,
I’m happy that You create this blog… I’m so curious about your experienced as a make-up artist and about your memories as a friend of Michael!
I hope You will tell us sweet and lovable stories about Him…
L.O.V.E.,
ALEX
That was touching…Thnx Karen…KEEP THE FAITH!!!
Hi Karen.
I’m so happy you’ve created your blog. Big congratulations, it’s just amazing. I’m going to read all
L.O.V.E.
Jarmila
Hi Turkle!
So comforting having you and our LOVE family back… ♥
ILY
Michele
Congrats on your beautiful blog, Karen!
Thanks for sharing your gift and experiences with us. You have inspired me in so many ways and I know that because of your insights I will be learning a lot from you. Thank you very much once again.
Love you!
Hi Karen,I have made it to….finally!It must be the sun,shall we say.
Hope all is well and it’s good to hear from you again
Good morning to my KARENLAND family here: Turkle, Alex, Mahi, Rosa Alers, Mapi, Ingrid, Pat, Karen B (KB Salsa girl). Neyha, Steph. Luz (Lucy) Gil..AND EVERYONE ELSE. HAPPY FRIDAY!
Teresita
Hello Teresita!!! Happy friday!!!
Hola Teresita!!
Well, I missed Friday Teresita, but here’s a happy Saturday to ya~
Still no image ;(((((((((((((((((((((( AAAAAAAAAAAARGH
Teresita, click “my account” —”profile”—”Current Gravatar”, then upload your image, click “next” and then “crop and finish”. i hope it’ll help.
Teresita, I have had the same problem yesterday. I tried it two times and no image… And after a few minutes, I have changed nothing it was suddenly here…maybe it works later for you too.
)
Hey Nicole!!! Nice to see you here babe. I didn’t have any problem loading my photo up…but, I was wondering…when I’m on Karen’s blog, how can I jump over to see yours? Is there a way? I wanted to click you on your picture and name to see if it shows you picture larger…am I doing it right? I am so climbing this blog mountain feet first. LOL
Let see now……….
@Teresita, no luck with your image?
@Shae: Hi my dear friend – I have no idea how it works – it’s my first time on a blog, all is new for me and I’m finally happy, that I’ve found the way to registrade me here… lol
Let us be grateful to people
who make us happy, they are
the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom. unknown
So good to see you back on the web, Karen! I was a part of your Facebook page.
I really appreciate you and all you;ve done.
LYM
K
Hi Karen..Glad you started a blog….Do you want to Talk about our lovely Michael here..or not?
Does it seem wierd to you that the whole world shares the grief of his loss..???We feel like we knew him….
Everyone should see the dvd Neverland the untold story by Larry Nimmer…they would never question his innocence again…
Thanks for sharing!
I am not here to speak about Michael in a direct sense. I am willing to share the things that he has taught me, spiritually and professionally. He has had a very intense impact on my life. Our lives intersected for a reason. I think it is important to share what I have learned.
Reading this again inspired me to do a little research on “wisdom.”
I came across these neat quotes:
“Knowledge comes, but wisdom lingers.”
By Lord Alfred Tennyson
Poem: Locksley Hall. (1842)
“Knowledge speaks, but wisdom listens.”
By Jimi Hendrix
“A loving heart is the truest wisdom.”
By Charles Dickens
“The arts are the servant; wisdom its master.”
By Lucius Annaeus Seneca
“Nine-tenths of wisdom is being wise in time.”
By Theodore Roosevelt
A result of wisdom is being able to…
“Do what you can, with what you have, where you are.”
By Theodore Roosevelt
I agree sag10. We are so grateful to be family here.
**hugzzz*
Hello my friends and especially to you Karen!! Your presence with us again feels like a cool breeze on a hot summer day – refreshing, soothing, and anxiously anticipated. Never forget you are not alone on this journey – we are beside you every single step of the way…
Hello.
Nice to see you on this blog.. ive just joined and will be following.
PEACE and LOVE
Hi there Karen! Happy to be part of your virtual world of beauty and spirit. Wishing you all the best and thank you for sharing!
Linn
(((((((HUGS)))))))
Hello Karen!I am glad you started this blog.Sorry for my english…
Hi karen u’re blog is amazing i hope u’ll continue we’ll support you
all my respect and love from morocco
thank you
Hola Agueda!!!
Mmmmmm! It is a beautiful day..
You can see an array of the skys brightest objects .. four planets and a star- together over the western horizon.
The star is regulus, the planets are Venus, Mercury, Mars and Saturn. Venus is very bright
In order top to bottom *Saturn *Mars *Venus * Regulus * ant the bottom is *Mercury.
And did you know that Venus is the 3rd brightest heavenly body after the Sun and Moon?
Sharing our heavenly skies with you.
Hello
What do you have to do to display the emo-icons (happy face, sad face) =S
You just have to hit the : and the ) together for the happy face
and the : and the ( together for the sad face 
Let me see
Thank you so much Karenr59!! I used to use the = and ) LOL… I send a big hug and a big
ILY
Just had to try this too. Hopefully it worked.
Hi Karen
I am Maria Benčík from Nitra Slovak republic. Thank you very much for beautiful comments in your interview in ABC. You and Michael bring in my life many blessing.
Hi Karen,
hope you are doing well… It’s nice to see you here
Miss you.
L.O.V.E.
Bita
Hi Karen! Nice to see you here, I’m excited for your blog, thank you so much for your kindness and love and everything you share and give. I love you
Hi Karen! So cool you blog. I loved.
Nice to see you here again.
You are so cute!
Thanks for all dear.
Rose Lucena
@Rose_Lucena – twitter
Blog: 360graus.blog.com
Kisses
L.O.V.E
Hi Karen! So cool youR blog. I loved.
Nice to see you here again.
You are so cute!
Thanks for all dear.
Rose Lucena
@Rose_Lucena – twitter
Blog: 360graus.blog.com
Kisses
L.O.V.E
Thank you Karen for sharing with us such beautiful and inspiring message. I believe it has reached me, at a time I needed to hear it the most. Many blessings to you. Love, Z
Hi Karen. Nice to see you again.
Thank you for inviting us to your blog, it’s so good to hear from you again! We have been missing you!
A sunny and warm greeting from Denmark (we have at last got summer here in cold Scandinavia too).
Dear Karen,
I am very touched by your interview “Michael Jackson after life special” on youtube.
My heart trusts you though I’ve watched “This Is It” 7 times.
Michael Jackson has touched bottom of my being there is no one has been…..
I love amazingly beautiful and genius Michael, also I love Michael as very sensitive, fragile and needed support like all of us as human being.
I love MIchael as whole…..
Love and big hugs to MIchael and you, Karen and everybody on the whole world who is touched by mIchael…..
Karen,
It’s so nice to have you back. I missed you, and this is my first time as a
blogger and it will be nice to ask you questions about make-up and hair, I am sure you can give us some tips with all of your experience. Luv to you and of course MJ.
Dear Karen:
Your blog was beautiful, I’m so glad to have found it.
I also watched your interview on 20/20. The truth about Michael needs so desperately to be heard. I asked of my entire family to sit and watch the show with me, because some of them have not always believed in him, having been manipulated by a distorted biased media. After the show was over and hearing your testimony and that of those who really knew him, I could tell that their hearts had softened. I can only imagine how many people might have reconsidered and rectified their negative points of view towards Michael after hearing the truth in your words, and seeing the genuine love that poured out of all of you.
I have adored Michael since I was a little girl (23 years ago) and he will always live in my heart for as long as I have breath…
Hi Karen!! I`m glad to be here. Thank you for keep us united, for share love. A big hug for you.
xoxo
Claudia
Sharing is the meaning of life…thank you for allowing us to “meet” Michael …You make our ultimate dream come true…
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But its not only about Michael…Its about you too… And you are a lovely, caring, gifted person…I wish one day i could know you better……
Goodmorning from Greece!!!
“We plan our lives according to a dream that came to us in our childhood, and we find that life alters our plans. And yet, at the end, from a rare height, we also see that our dream was our fate. It’s just that providence had other ideas as to how we would get there. Destiny plans a different route, or turns the dream around, as if it were a riddle, and fulfills the dream in ways we couldn’t have expected.”
– Quote by Ben Okri (Nigerian author, 1959)
Thank you, Karen!
Thanks to you I can once again touch the soul
wonderful man! Michael for me is a parallel world, I do not intersect with this world never ((((((
But I know that that this world exists and it makes me happy!
I am very glad you open the blog.
THX Karen~
Hi Karen,
happy you started your blog!!!
And happy to see you again her
Love
Ilona
Hi Karen,
happy you started your blog!!!
And happy to see you again here
Love
Ilona
Dear Karen,
I just opened this page and suddenly a wonderful music was playing…have you upload it (put it here: that everybody hears it while being on this page) or is my computer just crazy again? Because now, when I have tried it a second time I don’t hear this music anymore *weird* loool.
Anyway, I have to tell you again that I am very happy to see you and all the others here again…I missed you all so much <3
And "feeling" all the love again I am sure we will be able to move and grow a lot (also spititually) together… .
Big Hug and LYM!!!
Hello Family..happy Saturday to all of you. Mahi, I LOVE YOUR WORDS
I am very excited because tonight all my family are all going out to dinner. It’s a welcome one to my sister, nephew and niece; my brother-in-law still has thing to get set before moving back to Puerto Rico. So, far my life is AWESOME
HAVE A GREAT SATURDAY! L.O.V.E.
Hello my sweet Karen,
I am so happy you create this blog, it is a wonderful gift for all of us!
Thank you so much…
ILY
Gans
Thanks, Karen, for this blog. I am putting you on my prayer list.
Many blessings for a wonderful weekend
Wonderful to find this Karen, Jennifer Batten directed me here. So grateful and sending you warmest wishes for peace and happiness.
Dear Karen,
I really wanted to many people who loves Michael to know your interview which is this one from part 1 to part 3.
So for my friends who can not understand English, I up loaded in Japanese translation in one of Mixi’s topic which is like facebook but in Japan version with my friend’s help.
And it is touching many people’s heart……I know it will increase more and more…..
It might takes time but the truth will reach to people’s heart one day…..
Thank you, Karen.
Love and big hugs…..
Thanx for this blog!we missed you
happy to talk to you again
Love
Sandra
I am so very curious about what made Michael tick. I love his music. I’m one of those that grew up with his music. I’m only 2 yrs. older than him and he was always a part of my world. Not always a close part, but always a part. I really think the human race was wounded when Michael died. I know I felt physically wounded when I knew he wasn’t on this earth anymore. As time goes by I think a scar is forming, but I’m so aware of the wound.
You were very close to Michael and he trusted you. I’m glad you want to share about yourself and about Michael.
Karen…
from art student, to model, stylist to stars to an inspirational writer/speaker! Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Most people here were attracted to you by your association with Michael, by shared grief, but that in itself is not enough to move us forward to creating better lives for ourselves or healing our world.
Out of dark clouds there are always silver linings…. tragedies carry messages of hope, enlightenment and growth if we bother to heed them. I am so happy you choose to focus on those messages, and of creative empowerment.
Glad to be here, for the transcendental stuff as well as sharing your gifts for creating beauty. LYM in L.A.
very true, thank you minou1 , i wouldn’t be able to write better
Karen Sweetheart happy read you, thanks for sharing all this, that has a big significance for you. Send you a lot of love♥♥♥.
I was going to ask you a question about the origins of your wingheart logo. I then remembered an image of Michael from many years ago with the wings and arrow and realized the connection. (I can be a little slow sometimes but I catch up eventually…:) ) Can you shed anymore light on that image?
LYM,
Sandy
It is a painting I did. It is a self portrait.
Your painting is poignant and beautiful.
If I may, I pray that the Lord continues to
strengthen you, heal you and give you peace.
LYM,
Sandy
What a huge loss to humanity.. Thank you Karen for your strength to remember, and to share..
Must be painful, and at the same time some smiling in the heart..
Hi ! May I be a part of this blog too?
Sharing… Indeed, a very important lesson.
I am here to learn. Always eager to learn! Especially from great spirits, like yours.
Hopefully, at the end of our journey, we have absorbed as much as we are allowed to. And also add our personal touch.
Take care,
B.
I an thankful you can share Karen..you were so lucky not only to know Michael but to be his friend…for such a long time…I enjoyed your interview with Cynthia McFadden…and I sent her an email and said..maybe she should be the journalist to clear Michael’s name and find out why the media was so hurtful and biased..no journalist (like Jennifer Battens says).would have a backbone and report honestly during his trial..and stand up for him…We let a gentle wonderful soul get hurt….maybe thats my gift..to try to clear Michael’s name…( me and millions of others I think are trying..
I have a question..is it a true story that you and Lisa did have a seance..??and Michael came through?
Karen, this post really forced me to think, about myself, about who I am, who/what I want to be. I just wish I had the courage to show myself to the world, specifically to those who mean the most to me, and who happen to be the ones who judge me the most…:-/
It is awfully quiet here! Hellloooooooo!
This is the second message I am posting.. still not uploading my pic or better.. I am trying! LOL
It is amazing seeing all of my old friends back in the same place . We missed u <3, Valentina
Another really positive post. You know, Karen, I have hear so many negative things about you. Had I been one who follows the lead rather than take my own initiative to lead myself, I might have missed out on the joys of reading this blog and getting to know about you, the person. I know with 100% certainty that you speak of Michael Jackson from first hand knowledge and out of a friendship that has spanned over many, many years. More than can be said for many who take a certain pride in debasing your name. Though I can not say that I have ever met you or Michael Jackson, I can say that what you speak of him rings true with me in my heart. He taught me through deed and human compassionate instruction to love people where they are. It is not their task to meet me where I am. Either I can be on level with them or miss out on the gifts they have to offer. Because everyone possesses a gift. Some you have to reach down to get. Others you have to reach up to receive. And then yet the others you simply reach out and accept. But they are all gifts just the same. Thank God that they all come wrapped in their own individual adornment. It makes for a better, more colorful world. Thank you for sharing. I appreciate your words.
Hi Karen
My name is Andrea and I’m so happy that you are sharing this with all of us.
I know How much you love Michael and that you’ve been there for him whenever he needed you.
You are a wonderful person and Michael loved you very much .
Thank you for being so kind to us always and especially in these hard time.
L.o.v.e
Hi Karen,
I’m late, but I’m happy that I found your blog
Hi Karen,
THANK YOU 
what a joy to be with you again!!!!
Thanks for being close to all of us.
I love you SOOOOOO much.
Marina
hello karen and friends !
nice to be back with my family miss you guys and karen …
karen I hav read your blogs and jet felt the warm loving and caring person that you are karen and there for so happy that I found this blog so we can talk to you like you are par of are live’s you sure are par of the family of L.O.V.E
beause with out you we hav never came this fare becouse michael’s dead was a shoke to us all and it was you how was there for us !! I hav so much respect for what you hav don In time of need …..! what can I say to a very sweet woman but! L.O.V.E you the most !…..xxx
xxx linda xxx
wonderful words… :***
Hi Karen,
Your blog looks awesome and touching!
hi karen, thank you for always being there for michael. and starting this blog. he taught us alot and I will remember him for all the good things he has brought into our lives. bless you heart karen. HUGS!!!!!
Karen heaven, thank you very much for that, is a reassuring relago my soul. God bless you and there is no doubt that I will follow you … a big hug!
Hi Karen,
Thank you so much for this blog. Bless you.
Love,
Annemarie
Hello Dearest Karen and Friends,
I stumbled upon your blog last night for the first time and spent what felt like hours reading everything, often through tears, and then thinking and praying and searching my own heart and soul. What a gift you have given those of us who yearn to simply share the truth, the beauty, the light and love, the wisdom and humanity that was, is and forever will be the essence of Michael as a man, as an artist and as a teacher of life. Karen, your stories together with everyone’s comments, have had a profound and cathartic effect on me. I can’t begin to imagine the loss, the grief and the pain that you have suffered but I too was utterly devastated on that surreal day when Michael passed. The loss of him literally rocked me to the very core of my being. It was confusing and I wondered what was happening to me. Why was I so deeply stricken about a man I had never met? Why were other people indifferent about him? I felt silly at times. But God works his magic on each of us in ways that we don’t understand. Once my shock and the sting of my grief abated somewhat, I felt myself being carried, in the months following, to a divine place of heightened consciousness. I’m dancing again too and marvelling with renewed appreciation and joy the countless blessings in every aspect of life. So, it is with my deepest most heartfelt gratitude that I thank you Karen for sharing and giving the gift for us to come together where we can express our feelings, to learn and listen and to have a voice. Until today, I have never been a ‘blogger’ but there is a lovely aura here that utterly compelled me to jump onto this magic, crystal studded, silver buckled carpet and ride this beautiful journey with all of you, knowing that Michael’s soaring, loving spirit is with us in all our hearts.
Bless you. Thank you Michael, Angel.
With love, Marina
Dear Karen,
thank you once again for sharing. I love all the articles and I cant wait for more. <3
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This article inspired me to write this reply and ask you for your advice, perhaps you could help me out, you are a *fay* after all.
What if you dont know what your gift is, what is it that you were born with to share with the world?
Ive tried so many things throughout my life and I still havent found it. Some lone things stand out but I have trouble truly identifying the right one. Like for example singing. I love it, always have since childhood, but had all the reasons not to take it up seriously. Such as "oh what will you do with this, you cant live from singing, unless u get a break, but ure not that talented." or "you will never get good enough to actually use it, it takes 8,10 years of hard work to train the voice and ure getting old fast".
Or massage. Almost everyone told me they love how I do it, they feel this positive energy, healing, even my teacher said I was a natural, I just knew what to do and how to do it right..and yes, it all does come to me naturally, but as you know, there is an exchange of energy. And in my case I am in non stop deep tissue contact with a person for at least an hour, almost all of their body. It can be very draining. So I rarely do it any more. Only in rare cases I feel it intuitively that this person's energy I like. Like I know I'd be able to massage Michael for hours and not get tired.*grin* Even when he was in great distress, like during the second allegations. I was sending him ReiKi healing, almost every day (I have the 2nd degree). He was in great need of healing energy but I never felt drained. I could go on for hours, but I had to go on with my daily life, so I did it for perhaps 3 hrs max. Perhaps this was also because I truly cared for him, I dont know. But I hope it helped.
So you see, I dont know what my gift really is, what I should dedicate myself to. And its been hard, cos I feel so out of place. My whole life has been a long search. I keep wondering why oh dear universe, why am I here??? What is my purpose? Are you suuuuure Im on the right planet? You didnt accidentally leave me here and forgot to get me like E.T.? lol
Perhaps you get inspired to share a word of inspiration, Karen. Im trying to keep the faith, but it feels like a never ending story… but if you dont I will not mind, I just thought it wont hurt to ask, lol.
love'n'hugs
K.
Merci beaucoup Karen pour ce partage. Vous etes surement une personne douce ,loyale et généreuse, car vous etes l une des personnes qui ne l a probablement jamais trahi puisque vous avez toujours été a ses cotés source de confiance et de sécurité .Je ne vous connais pas mais vous m inspiré la loyauté et le professionnalisme. Merci a vous et au plaisir de vous lire.